Late night

I absolutely can not sleep. My mind wont stop and my tummy keeps growling, even though I had a big bowl of pasta not long before bed.

Jimmy-Jack was super fun today. He woke up with a start and just got better after that.

He doesn't like being on his tummy for very long, and usually starts fussing when he can't quite figure out how to crawl. But today he did really well. He wasn't quite happy, but he wasn't sad either, and he made his way about two feet! lol. He puts his little head down every time he goes to move. It's really cute.

He has also been having a hard time with drinking out of a bottle. I figured he just didn't like the nipples we were using so I tried the other ones and presto! He got it. lol. This will make our super long road trip much easier. Now if only he could change his diaper while staying in his car seat. lol.

Nap time

Jimmy-Jack has gotten good at falling asleep on his own, but I have not yet gotten used to it. I will be in the kitchen making some food while he is in his playpen fussing s little, and then I'll get the the living room (all 5 steps away), I'll put down my food and turn to pick him up and he's asleep! It shocks me every time.

I'm so proud of him though. He learned very quickly. He learns everything quickly! I can't believe how big he is getting, nearly 4 months old!

I decided

I decided I really like blogging. Even though most of what I have to say is just jabber, it's still neat.
It's getting late, for me, and Jimmy-Jack has decided he is not tired. So he is in his play pen getting his energy out while I am sipping some hot coco and "surfing the web." Ha, I haven't thought of that phrase in a while. It kind of sounds like something dorky to say, like something no one says anymore. Like saying World Wide Web. It's just funny.
I was thinking earlier about how much everything has changed in the world so quickly. It's kind of like each time something got invented more got discovered even faster, and that happened each time. I mean think about it, we have light so easy for us and they use to use candles! Of course before that was just the sun. Can you imagine what it was like to see the first candle, how did that even happen?! I'm not very imaginative so it is hard for me to see how people can think up new crazy things.
Take a hairbrush for example, who thought of that?! I can't imagine Eve brushing her hair. When did people even start caring how their hair looked? There might be obvious answers but I don't know them.

Cooking

So I'm not a very good cook, I don't know how to make many things. I do love to bake though. Recently I, however, found breaded chicken. So easy and quite tasty. Eat anything long enough and it gets old, sadly. I can make spaghetti, boil noodles.... I make super good boiled eggs. But that's about it, well that and pancakes.

I really need to learn new, preferably easy, recipes. Especially with Thanksgiving coming up. It's not going to be anything special this year, but I would like it to be in future years.

So, if anyone has some good recipes, or sites, please let me know!

Humph

I have come to learn that Field Ops are no fun. About once a month Alex has to leave and be gone anywhere between 2 days to a month. It makes it pretty hard to be married, we miss eachother like crazy when he's gone and get easily upset when he's home. It takes time but we are slowly figuring things out. It's easy to get along when you are away from one another and can just miss each other. We just need to figure how to deal with the little things that agitate us, like every couple does. Of course it's mostly me. I like things a certain way and get easily upset if they aren't done so. I would like to blame it on my being OCD, and it is, but that is something I can overcome. I just need to buck up and do it. Most the time I think about what I'm saying before I say it, but when it comes to these situations I don't think about it until after and then I realize that it was pretty ridiculous. Alex has been very patient with me about it but it doesn't take long for it to get under his skin. So now we argue about arguing about little things. We both know it's redundant. We are slowly figuring it out. It doesn't help, though, when he has to be gone for days at a time and then we have to start the process all over.

We love each other and we will get through it. Love isn't something that is easy, it takes work. And we will work until we get it.

Things coming up

So I'm 26 weeks pregnant, which means I only have 14 weeks left to get everything figured out. So far we have a crib mattress lined up, a few outfits, and a super cute receiving blanket. Which means we still need a crib(or a bassinet to start out with), car seat, stroller, diaper bag, baby bath thing, a papoose thing, a baby swing, and of course more clothes and diapers. And I'm sure there's more random things that I've missed.

Some of those things are easy to come by or I'll get at a baby shower, which by the way I'm my church is throwing one for me May 3rd at 7 p.m. at the Imbler church. I'm excited for that. I'm mostly concerned about a car seat, but more importantly a car. We're looking for one, but we are on quite a tight budget, especially with having to move somewhere new and we will probably have to furnish it, which is not cheap. We have a mattress and couch set up to get, but other then that we don't have anything else. I have no idea what we are going to do about that. But I guess we just have to keep looking and know that the Lord will provide in his time. Oh right, back to the car thing. There's a Durango in town, but of course those are quite expensive. They are a car that I like and would be safe. My moms helping me look at Toyota's though because they are having a deal, and we found they have a military discount which is super awesome!

So anyway, no one reads this, but obviously you are right now ;) So if you read this in time and you could help us out at all let me know for sure! Because that would be super awesome!

Ciao!

It sucks

I hate being upset and knowing why. As long as I don't think about it I'm just stressed but unsure why, once I start trying to figure it out I go through the process of analyzing myself and finding out that I'm stressed because I'm afraid. That just brings out even more emotions which I hate to deal with. It's good because I can work through my problems, but bad because that's something I hate because it takes so much emotion. I like to just stick to the happier side of things, and stress or problems make you stray from that.

All day there are things that could easily stress me out, but I'm fine with it and understand why they happen or know that they are happening for a reason, and then a simple call which makes me very happy had just one bad tone and I get upset. Not because what is said is really all that bad, just because it sucks that I have to talk to them over the phone and don't have the slightest option of talking to them in person. So instead of just being happy I find ways to show my anger, by doing so it just brings them down. Which is far from what I want to do. I don't want to hurt them, but it's the only way I know how to show my emotion.

It sucks.

Separation

It sucks being away from Alex so long while he is at Marine training. But when I think about it I realize that we will be ahead of the rest. We may not have gotten the time to know each other our first few month of marriage the same way other couples do, but we are testing our limits and with that we know that we can withstand anything. We can't work through the hard stuff in person so we learn to work through it from afar. It's hard but I really think that it is bringing us closer and helping us realize the things that could have brought us farther down in the future if we hadn't been apart to discuss them.