Things coming up

So I'm 26 weeks pregnant, which means I only have 14 weeks left to get everything figured out. So far we have a crib mattress lined up, a few outfits, and a super cute receiving blanket. Which means we still need a crib(or a bassinet to start out with), car seat, stroller, diaper bag, baby bath thing, a papoose thing, a baby swing, and of course more clothes and diapers. And I'm sure there's more random things that I've missed.

Some of those things are easy to come by or I'll get at a baby shower, which by the way I'm my church is throwing one for me May 3rd at 7 p.m. at the Imbler church. I'm excited for that. I'm mostly concerned about a car seat, but more importantly a car. We're looking for one, but we are on quite a tight budget, especially with having to move somewhere new and we will probably have to furnish it, which is not cheap. We have a mattress and couch set up to get, but other then that we don't have anything else. I have no idea what we are going to do about that. But I guess we just have to keep looking and know that the Lord will provide in his time. Oh right, back to the car thing. There's a Durango in town, but of course those are quite expensive. They are a car that I like and would be safe. My moms helping me look at Toyota's though because they are having a deal, and we found they have a military discount which is super awesome!

So anyway, no one reads this, but obviously you are right now ;) So if you read this in time and you could help us out at all let me know for sure! Because that would be super awesome!

Ciao!

It sucks

I hate being upset and knowing why. As long as I don't think about it I'm just stressed but unsure why, once I start trying to figure it out I go through the process of analyzing myself and finding out that I'm stressed because I'm afraid. That just brings out even more emotions which I hate to deal with. It's good because I can work through my problems, but bad because that's something I hate because it takes so much emotion. I like to just stick to the happier side of things, and stress or problems make you stray from that.

All day there are things that could easily stress me out, but I'm fine with it and understand why they happen or know that they are happening for a reason, and then a simple call which makes me very happy had just one bad tone and I get upset. Not because what is said is really all that bad, just because it sucks that I have to talk to them over the phone and don't have the slightest option of talking to them in person. So instead of just being happy I find ways to show my anger, by doing so it just brings them down. Which is far from what I want to do. I don't want to hurt them, but it's the only way I know how to show my emotion.

It sucks.

Separation

It sucks being away from Alex so long while he is at Marine training. But when I think about it I realize that we will be ahead of the rest. We may not have gotten the time to know each other our first few month of marriage the same way other couples do, but we are testing our limits and with that we know that we can withstand anything. We can't work through the hard stuff in person so we learn to work through it from afar. It's hard but I really think that it is bringing us closer and helping us realize the things that could have brought us farther down in the future if we hadn't been apart to discuss them.