I hate being upset and knowing why. As long as I don't think about it I'm just stressed but unsure why, once I start trying to figure it out I go through the process of analyzing myself and finding out that I'm stressed because I'm afraid. That just brings out even more emotions which I hate to deal with. It's good because I can work through my problems, but bad because that's something I hate because it takes so much emotion. I like to just stick to the happier side of things, and stress or problems make you stray from that.
All day there are things that could easily stress me out, but I'm fine with it and understand why they happen or know that they are happening for a reason, and then a simple call which makes me very happy had just one bad tone and I get upset. Not because what is said is really all that bad, just because it sucks that I have to talk to them over the phone and don't have the slightest option of talking to them in person. So instead of just being happy I find ways to show my anger, by doing so it just brings them down. Which is far from what I want to do. I don't want to hurt them, but it's the only way I know how to show my emotion.
It sucks.
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